diary of the baseball princess: reflections...

so it has been quite awhile since i've last checked in. why? i don't know... just haven't really much to say. i've gone through a roller coaster of emotions in the past month. but don't get me wrong, i'm very happy and love everyone in my life right now.
there have been somethings in my life that just didn't go my way and i'm now dealing with it. there has been a lost in my family and it was kind of hard to deal with especially since i didn't know how to react to it. it was hard for me to really express my feelings to my family since we didn't get to together to reflect on what happened nor did it make anyone in my family closer. i guess my family is not as close as it used to be.
i tried to go for an assistant manager position at work... for two weeks i was stressing out and was really nervous about the interviews. i thought that i did really well but i guess i am not who they are looking for. was i disappointed? of course. i put 150% into my interviews and i felt very confident. i couldn't help but be. it's hard to accept rejection. do i feel discouraged to go for another position? no. i feel that the next time another opportunity arises, i'll go for it. i'll be more prepared and more confident the next time around.
so i have begun another journey with trying to lose weight... who isn't? i know i'm not extremely overweight but i've always been insecure about my weight. i used to be thin and then i think i didn't realize i was starting to gain weight. i'm not really overweight but i feel it... i used to a lot bigger than where i am now but still, i'd like to feel healthier and feel good about my body. so i decided to really do something about it. i decided to do weight watchers again but not just to lose weight but to make a change in my eating habits and i feel it's really a lifestyle change for me. so far after 5 weeks, i've lost about 5 pounds and i feel good about myself. it's going to be a stuggle but i will really work towards my goal weight.
i haven't been just sad or disappointed in the last month... i've been happy too. i've spent a lot of time with my friends and come to the realization about who my real friends are. i've grown closer to some friends who i have not been able to really talk to before and i've gotten to know old friends again as well. i am happier than ever with eric and can you believe that our two year anniversary is coming?! craziness!! i love where my life is now... i can't ask for anything more. i may have come across some disappointment and sadness as well as some frustration but i think that what's kept me smiling are the people around me. for my friends who read this - thank you for all your support, encouragement, friendship, and laughter. i don't know what i'd do without you. i think that i am back in the mode to keep up with my blog. i think i just needed to take a little break and regroup. so now that i got that out of my system... time for the pictures!